I am indeed, a living "Seinfeld" episode...

I just recently watched the episode of Seinfeld where Jerry brings into question the way he is leading his life and determines that he's not a man, but merely still a child...dumping people for small idiosyncrasies, looking at something at first glance and deciding right away that he doesn't like it...making fun of just about everything, living alone and still eating sugar cereal for 2 out of 3 meals of the day...not getting married or having long lasting relationships because the other person (whomever it is) does "weird" things that he can't imagine living with for a month, much less the rest of his life, etc...and it came to me...THAT'S ME!...I am, in fact, a large child...I am a walking Seinfeld episode...I do ALL of those things and more and I think it's just to KEEP people away...don't get me wrong...it's not that I don't like people per se...most likely it is because, I love my alone time to the point where anyone being around for more than a couple of hours completely interferes with the other things I plan on doing or want to do...I'm completely immature and self-centered, but at least I can admit it...I want to do, what I want to do, when I want to do it...and I don't like other people standing in the way...Even though, I guess, other people could be enveloped into what I'm doing, and may even have fun doing it...I don't want to babysit or make sure they are having as much fun as I am...I guess that is something I really need to work on...every time I think I've made a step in the "right" direction, however...I literally INVENT a reason to sabotage said event and bail on it...I guess, at this point I am completely stuck in my "ways"...how ever damaging they may be to my relationships with people in general...I do like people, but I guess it's safe to say that I like me more...I know when I'm hanging out solo, that I'm not going to be disappointed in any way, shape, or form...my psyche doesn't want to handle a "hang out" where complaining and drama is what's on the menu...it also doesn't want to deal with doing something that I find boring to appease another person and make them happy...it's not a fan of compromise...I guess the only way to bring people in without shutting them out, is to find more people out there that are like me...people that occasionally like the company of others but enjoy spending the majority of their time by themselves and honor the other person's reasons for wanting solitude and respect that by leaving them alone in those times...Even though I'm invited to do many things...I participate in maybe 1 out of 20...it's just the way I am...the folks that truly know me respect this feature, they may not like it very much, but they respect it...and I, in turn, respect them...I show up to the important things, birthday parties, christenings, family reunions...it's just the random nights of barhopping and the Pampered Chef Parties and things like that I bail on...I also don't want to lead guys on, just to have something to do either...I think that is a quality people should respect quite frankly...I'm not wasting their time, or mine...There are folks in this world that like to be on the go and constantly surrounded by other people...and there is nothing wrong with that...I just don't happen to be one of them...just sayin'... :D

REALLY A & E?...*sigh*

Oh A & E...really?...Is a show about celebrity house hunting REALLY necessary?...Seriously?...My how you've sunk to ridiculously low levels since you first produced and aired decent programming like "America's Castles", "City Confidential", "American Justice" & "Cold Case Files"...*sigh*...although, so have many TV viewers...I'm going to personally say loudly and clearly, that I will not be watching this program...as long as they are happy with their lives, I really have no desire to watch, nor do I give a rat's ass what houses they look at, and which one they end up buying...Where Verne Troyer lives has NO relevance in my life.  I have a home that I am happy in, hopefully everyone else does too...Do I think that people wanted to watch me house hunt though? I'm thinking, not so much...beyond ridiculous...I realize that we are in a recession in this country and everyone is having a "difficult" time, including networks (I guess)...but where is the pride you should have in your company and your product?  What?...You can't think of anything Artistic & Entertaining to broadcast (A&E)?...I'm thinking you just may have the wrong folks working in your programming and development divisions...If you don't care though, believe me, I REALLY don't care that much...personally, I'm just trying to keep my shit straight and keep my head above water...reality shows in general, have been force fed to us for the last decade and even more so since the writers strike in 2007...I watched season 1 of survivor and never looked back...I don't understand the draw...to me, it's nothing short of people doing stupid shit for money & very little money compared to a real actor's salary, until, of course, inevitably society glorifies them for merely being on TV...then morons end up making millions like that crazy ass Snooki chick...we created that monster...We should all thank each other (note the sarcasm) and then in turn, kick each others asses (note the seriousness)...People bitch about actors, writers and directors making exorbitant amounts of money...but they have a skilled craft folks, they go to school for it and study it for years (it's very rare that someone just gets "discovered" at the soda fountain these days, like in years gone by)...they continue to work on it and mold their craft with every project they encounter and what they produce actually has a story, an arc and is performed with expertise...now, because of reality tv, douchebags like "The Situation" and insipid idiots like "Snooki" are raking in the cash with absolutely no skills or crafts at all...just for getting wasted, working out, pissing themselves, puking, hooking up and tanning...I've done all of those things before myself...the difference is, some of these things I'm glad people don't know any details about...quite frankly, my self-respect prohibits me from wanting people to know all the stupid things I've done and on occasion, still continue to do...Until people stop watching and glorifying this gutter trash we're stuck with it...Don't even get me started on E! or should I just call it the Seacrest/Kardashian network...I just don't see the attraction to these shows...but go ahead folks...put even more money into their grubby little paws for doing absolutely nothing of value...why the hell not?...They deserve it **rolling eyes** the "Dumbing Down" of society is all the more evident with almost every reality show and "Snooki" that comes to pass...just sayin'...